Tale 4 : The Road to Adulthood
New Year is here and so are the endless memories of all the past Christmases and New Year's Eves. The parties with friends and family and all the dancing and delicious food. Ah! Only happy times and nothing else.
Fortunately, I have absolutely no bad memories of my childhood. I've been treated only with kindness and love. Having diabetes has made me realize the worth of small happy moments, and how important my family's support has been throughout these 14 years. I can't help but be grateful for it all.
After I completed junior college, I went to Pune to study business administration. A turning point in my life, Pune has played the biggest part in bringing out the best and the 'not so great' in me. It is the place where I found friends for life, love and heartbreak, and the drive to become the best that I could be. I was a small town girl, fascinated with my big University and the big city life. Everything was so exciting, even having a cup of coffee at the cafe nearby.
My diabetes was always in the background of all the happenings in my life. I wouldn't even remember that I had this terrible condition till my friend pointed out to me that I shouldn't have that extra piece of cheesecake. I had only told my best friend about the diabetes and no one else ever knew. I'm sure most of them got to know about it after I've started writing this blog. ;)
But, I was naive and embarrassed to let anyone know. I pushed it so far back in my head as if I was in denial once again. I took care of myself well and rarely had any hypoglycemic episodes. Although, it doesn't justify being in denial of a condition that is nothing to be ashamed of.
See, I'm writing all this now because Yoga has made me befriend my diabetes. But if you would have talked to me 5 years back, I was a completely different person. Well, we'll come to Yoga again, later. When I started my graduation in business administration, I wasn't very interested in my subjects. I didn't quite like it but I had to graduate, and getting a degree from a prestigious university like Symbiosis, meant a lot for my future. So, I continued with the course while keeping parties and other things in the foreground.
Staying with flatmates, late night chats and midnight snacking, driving to distant places with the best of people and some great music. I wouldn't give it up for anything in the world. If I could, I would live it all once again. I have this theory that because I've been blessed with such a perfect life, the universe gave me diabetes as a way to compensate for all the happiness, and so that I stay on track and don't lose my purpose.
So, I found love and lost it a couple of times, had some of the best and worst days of my life and finally graduated. The road to adulthood had some major bumps and I got so many reality checks, it's almost funny. But, I never gave up. This is what has shaped my life and I don't regret a single moment of it. I just regret not having Yoga in my life at that time. The bumps would have been less and the ride a lot smoother with my brain in place. :)
But everything comes to you in it's own time. You have to go through certain experiences to find meaning in them later. There is only one way to come out of life's challenging times, and that's only by going head-first through them. I'm so grateful for these 4 years in Pune. They made me who I am today and I'm so darn proud of that person.